Sunday, March 10, 2013

Farewell in SMYSA


So often in my life I have made excuses to avoid doing things that I don't want to do.  I have helped several friends one after another as they prepared to serve their missions. Every time one of these friends left I have been asked when I would be putting in my own mission papers. My response though different each time ended with the same resounding answer. Stating that I don't have the desire to serve a mission it isn't for me or I cant do it. So needless to say it is surprising even to me to be giving this talk within a month of reporting to the MTC

While deciding to serve a mission was a very personal decision for me. I know that it is what I need to do. My path in deciding to serve started in July when I reached out to a new member of the ward who was having a hard time with her new job. After we talked for a few hours about life and questions of why things happen. I was able to turn to several scriptures that seemed to calm her fears. After I dropped her off back home I started driving home as I did that I had this question pop into my mind "if you can help one of my daughters in three hours what could you do with 18 months"

As I might be a stubborn person I shrugged off this impression. Then while visiting a ward in Utah the full time elders were speaking and he started his talk with the question what is missionary work all about?  The answer to his question stuck with me. Missionary work is all about love, Love of the Savior, Love of Mankind, and Love of the Gospel and wanting to share it with all who will listen. Sunday school followed with a lesson in Alma 40, which outlines the plan of salvation. Then in relief society the sisters were asked. What marvelous opportunities come my way because of my membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints? Some of my answers to this question were: Great standards to live by, values to never question, and knowing the love of our Savior Jesus Christ. Why when we have been given so much would we not want to share it with those who are closest to us?

For most people I would say that would be enough to decide to serve, however it took me one more week. While I was sitting in my friends "homecoming talk She told about the tornados that hit while she was serving. She told that even though there was destruction in the wake of the storm she watched as the people worked together to get up and to rebuild. When they rebuilt they rebuilt better and stronger. It hit me that this is a lot like life is we have trials that will knock us down and try to destroy us. As we overcome trials we become stronger. Much like trees that suffer in a drought they dig their roots deeper into the ground, these deeper roots provide additional strength in the windy storms. We must take the trials that we all face and learn from them, use them to dig down deep in our souls with faith and build to gain stronger testimony of our savior.

 We must learn from our mistakes, when will we get torn down and we will rebuild stronger then we were before.  President Monson urged us  In order for us to be strong and to withstand all the forces pulling us in the wrong direction or all the voices encouraging us to take the wrong path, we must have our own testimony, Whether you are 12 or 112or anywhere in between[We] can know for ourselves that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true.

How do we gain our own testimony? Several years ago president Monson gave three suggestions to the primary children in the friend magazine.
            1. Prayer
2. Scriptures
3. Service  
Prayer- as we remember that we are indeed a son or daughter of God, it becomes easier to approach the Lord in prayer. He knows us each of us, what we want and what we need.  The bible dictionary teaches us that the Object of prayer is not change the will of God, but to secure for ourselves the blessings that God is already willing to grant, but are made conditional on our asking for them.
Scriptures. The scriptures are the word of god. In Lehi’s dream the people are holding to the rod of iron, later in the story it is described as clinging to the rod. There are times that we will just have to hold on and there are times that we will have to relay 100% on the scriptures and the lord to help us to withstand trials as we strengthen our foundations of faith and truth.
Service- as we forget ourselves and serve others we grow to love others as the Savior loves us. We will find it easier to see the lords hands in our own lives. As I have felt unqualified to accept a calling or to serve in the church I reflect on the often-quoted quote where President Monson reminded us  If any brother or sister feels unpreparedeven
Incapableof responding to a call to serve, to sacrifice, to bless the lives of others, remember this truth: Whom God calls, God qualifies.


Once we gain this strong testimony in the truth of the Gospel and our roots are deep. We will find that when the storms of life come our way we will be able to stand just a little taller. We are counseled by todays prophets and apostles to stand strong in our beliefs and to take action. Each week we renew our baptism covenants and we promise to always remember him, and to take his name upon us.

When we take the name of Jesus Christ upon us each week we are promising to be an example of the Savior in all that we do. We each have the light of the Savior within us and as in Mathew and also third Nephi we read.  It cannot be hid. Please dont try to hide it.  In Doctrine and Covenants section 6 the Lord promised us verily, verily, I say unto you, even as you desire of me so it shall be unto you. And if you desire, you shall be the means of doing much good in this generation.

As a ward we have dubbed this month Missionary March I have found that missionary work is much more then sending the missionaries over to a friend. Missionary work is about love; it is living as an example of our Savior. It is being willing to stand up for what is right, even when we have to stand-alone. President Hinckley taught,  “There is hunger in the land, and a genuine thirst—a great hunger for the word of the Lord and an unsatisfied thirst for things of the Spirit. … The world is starved for spiritual food. Ours is the obligation and the opportunity to nourish the soul” Just as the trees in a drought thirst after water, we each have someone near to us that is thirsting to know the truth and they are being prepared by the Lord to accept the gospel of Jesus Christ into their lives.

President Dieter F. Uchtdorf challenged (July 2011 ensign) us to fully invest in the cause of spreading the gospel by taking decisive action. He continued

Commitment is a little like diving into the water, President Uchtdorf said. Either you are committed or you are not. Either you are moving forward or you are standing still. Theres no halfway. We all face moments of decision that change the rest of our lives. As members of the Church, we must ask ourselves, Will I dive in or just stand at the edge? Will I step forward or merely test the temperature of the water with my toes?

As members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, we have committed to walk in the path of discipleship. We have committed to follow the example of our Savior. Imagine how the world will be blessed and transformed for good when all members of the Lords Church live up to their true potentialconverted in the depth of their souls and committed to building the kingdom of God.

In some way, each of us stands at a decision point overlooking the water. It is my prayer that we will have faith, move forward, face our fears and doubts with courage, and say to ourselves, Im committed!’”


Being committed to share your testimony isn’t an easy task, however, if you are committed to live your testimony by living the standard and principles of the gospel. It will become impossible to hide your testimony from those around you, as they will see the light of Christ within you.

Once I made the decision that I would serve a full time mission it gave me a purpose in what my next step in my journey of life would be. As I started to prepare with scripture study including the preach my gospel manual.  I found that as I gained the desire to share the gospel and I was happy. Since then on more then one occasion I have been asked me what I had changed. The answer to what I had changed is simple the thing I had changed more then anything was my attitude. I discovered that if you want to be happy…be.

While I know that this decision of serving a mission is what I need to do. I still have faced much doubt in my decision. While I have found that all of the doubts I face merit of there own. I know that life happens on the Lords timeframe not our own. There is someone I need to reach, maybe even myself, which is prepared to fully accept the Savior as his or her redeemer. I know that as we are prepared to stand for what we believe we will never stand alone, as we will be standing with our father in Heaven. This is His gospel. It is the only complete truth on the earth today, restored through the prophet joseph smith. The scriptures are the words of God and he will guide your life if you let him. I echo Nephi when he taught “ that we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we Prophesy of Christ… that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins. The Savior has paid the price for all of our sins. Let the atonement heal your heart, you are his daughter or son, he loves and knows each of us and he will never leave you alone. He will guide you to know what to say and who to share the Gospel with. I know that as we seek to strengthen our testimonies we will be able to withstand the storms of life and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Way I Serve!!! part 2

So after I was set apart I thought to myself "bigger and better things" I had no idea at the time what the Lord had in store for me. I was sitting in sacrament a week later while a new sister, who also was a new nanny was speaking. While she was speaking to a ward that she had only been in for two weeks she looked very nervous, she was a good childhood friend of one of my friends who had to work during church that day. I was urged to text her and see if she needed a ride home. She had an appointment with the bishopric and then we decided to go pick up our other friend and then we went to the wonderful Los Angeles Temple Visitors Center.




 The sister missionaries, one of which was a sister to a friend in high school in my home stake,  showed us the "families can be together forever" video, and yes this was the second or possibly third time I had broken down in tears during this process.  We went from the visitors center to an home teaching appointment that I had previously committed to. We then went to drop K off at her house that she nannied at, we sat in the car as she asked questions I was able to turn to the scripture to find some comfort hopefully she did as well. I was driving M home I had the clearest question pop into my mind as clear as day "IF YOU CAN HELP ONE OF MY DAUGHTERS IN THREE HOURS WHAT COULD YOU DO WITH 18 MONTHS?"

Hesitant as I am to admit it. I wanted to scream no!!! I can't do it! I won't do it! I am too old to serve a mission. Well even today about 7 months later. I keep thinking Am I sure i can do. I think of Nephi with his brothers in the Book of Mormon. When they were asked to get the plates Nephi responded

"I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commanded them." 1 Nephi 3:7

I had a institute teach explain attitude once during a class that stuck with me. With any responsibility that we have there are three levels of attitudes. I won't do it, I have to do it, and I want to do it. It isn't the easiest to get to wanting to do something that you have to do.

A few weeks later it was the first week of August and I was in Utah for the month working with the family that I nanny. I went to church with my "Family- not really family but as close as you could get" and the full time elders were speaking.  The first elder started his talk with the question "What is missionary work all about? He continued to explain that missionary work is all about love. Love of the Savior, love of the Gospel, Love of fellow man. Sunday school followed with a lesson in Alma 40 on the plan of salvation also known as the plan of happiness.

As if this wasn't an overload. I went into Relief Society with Debbie and the instructor had written this question on the board. What marvelous opportunities have come my way because of my membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints? Here are a few of my answers that I wrote down to this question.

  • A Knowledge of the scriptures
  • great people put into my life 
  • trust in the power of the priesthood
  • Love of the Savior, Jesus Christ
  • Knowledge of the Plan of Salvation
  • ability to love Myself as a daughter of God
  • I am of worth, of infinite worth
  • opportunities to serve those around me
  • ability to set a great example
  • Values to Never question
  • Standards to Live By
  • Knowledge that the gospel of Jesus Christ is the complete and true testimony of Christ on the earth. 
Yes this seems like and was a spiritual overload. I would think that if I was so stubborn I would have made the choice to serve a mission right then and there. As I am a very stubborn person, my thoughts were that I turn 26 next week, why would I even consider a mission. I started a study of the book of mormon and found about steps and choices. 
  
We chose to step
 Pressing Forward ---> Desire---> Mist of darkness or trails come our way---> we chose to 1. hold to the rod of iron or 2. we lose our way. ----->the faithful clung to the gospel of Jesus Christ. 

The words Hold and Clung stand out to me. We all have trials that come our way and we all make choices. We need to hold fast and cling for the truth that we hold so that we can help others find their way back into the fold. 

One week later, sitting in another sacrament meeting I went to support a good friend who had just returned from her mission from Nashville tennessee. She spoke of the people she taught and the also the storms that she went through. There were a few tornados while she was serving. She taught that as these storms would rip through the neighborhood and tear things down and apart. It is like the trials we face in our lives. We may be ripped apart here and there, but as we hold fast we will rebuild bigger and better and be stronger before the next storm life sends our way. 

It wasn't an hour after I got out of this sacrament meeting that I sent a text to set an appointment with my Bishop for the first sunday I got back in town. And then the paperwork began. 

Why I Serve!! part 1

For many years each time that one of my close friends left or returned from their missions I would undoubtedly be asked when I was going to serve. My response was always the same, I am not going to serve a mission it isn't for me. I would have told you this even last year but that changed and changed rapidly. I have told my story to several people and everyone has told me to make sure that I write it down so I thought I would start a blog! yeah this may be the only post on it but lets give it a shot.

I think I would have to start with a little intro to the last couple years of my life. I currently work as a nanny for two little boys one is 4 and the other is almost 2. There has been up and down days in my job just like there is in any job. One of the most frustrating days I had was what I see as the start point in the tornado I would call the path to my mission. I was so frustrated that I was literally searching for flights home. My bosses were in Europe and the boys aunt had come to stay with us. After subduing to the fact that I cant just get up and leave I decided to go ahead with my plan to leave the house that evening and go to the Family History Library and deliver the treats i was in charge of making. I can't remember exactly how it happened but I ended up picking up a close yet unexpected friend and taking her with me. She was going to go to the temple while I planned on being at the FHL. As we pulled into the shared parking lot I got the impression that I should go to the Temple with my friend. I dropped the desserts off and then headed across the street to the temple.

As I sat in the temple with tears in my eyes (i would insert here that i never cry but that would not be the case). I opened the Book of Mormon and a scripture popped right out at me which said

"Peace, Peace be unto you, because of your faith in my Well Beloved, who was from the foundation of the world." Hel 5:47

A member of our bishopric and his wife were working in the temple and they are amazing and gave me the opportunity to talk it out or if it wasn't in the temple i would call it ranting. The one question that "big Fish" asked me that I remember is what was my goal where was I heading. I didn't have a goal, i didn't know what i wanted to do with my life. I was 25 working in a dead end job 70 plus hours a week and feeling like i wasn't going anywhere.

I had the opportunity to ask Big Fish for a blessing. Although like with most blessing I have ever received I don't remember any of the words that were told to me all I remember is the sudden realization  (that really should have known all along) that I was a DAUGHTER OF GOD!!! His love was felt and I knew that I had work to do here in this life.

Just knowing without a doubt that I am a daughter of God changed my prospective. A few weeks later most likely due to my ranting session I received a text message from lil Fish asking me to come in and meeting with the bishopric. As I was on the east coast at the time I got to wait another 2 weeks before I knew what my new calling would be.

On a side-note the trip to maine and cape cod though i was working gave me some beautiful sunsets and gorgeous sunrises and reminded me how wonderful the Lord is and the little things that he gives to each of us.



I went in and met with Big Fish once again and was asked to serve on the ward Family Home Evening committee. I accepted the call to serve. As when we get new calls we are set apart to give us the added strength to do our responsibilities. One line from the Lord while I was set apart stood out and i have never heard it be. I was told to "be patient for I have bigger and better this planned for you." Not exactly what you expect to hear while be set apart for a new calling but it has stayed with me.